Sunday, August 24, 2008
Karma is a bitch, I wish I knew what I did to deserve this shit storm... He asked me to leave and I did. When someone else he knows shows interest in me, he says he’s fine by it. When I’m seen in public with that someone else, shit hits the fan and my life becomes a soap-opera again. I’m not even on the fucking island and I’m the center of attention.

My father and mother are separating and it’s certain. She’s been in touch with a lawyer who since got in touch with my father’s lawyer. I’ll end up having to testify and that’s fine. The truth will not work in my mother’s favour but the way I see it, she hates me so much without any reason anyway, what more can the truth cause? With any luck, I’ll at least be able to help my father out. Any financial gain she takes away from this separation will be pissed away on alcohol, lawyers’ fees and whatever random crap she decides to pick up from junk shops along the way. She’s already been selling off her gold and pearls to feed her habits. It disgusts me to know what’s she’s done, what she’s attempting to do, and where it’s all going to lead. I wish I knew how my mother became what she is today, and I dread the day I become the same.

I’ve been here just over a week. I haven’t taken a single anti-depressant pill and I feel fantastic – despite the drab things that seem to be happening in my life. I’m well on my way to finding a job and generally, I’m happy. Let’s hope it stays that way.

7 words of wisdom:

adevents said...

that gooooood write the book till u find the job, good luck , and hey u r fast in meeting men lol

Tainted Female said...

I'm cute... I can get away with that... lol.

Em said...

good you're getting to a better place...

* said...

Someday things will soon get better.
Ride the waves till then, we are by your side.

Tainted Female said...

Thank you guys. Life is getting better these days. I was offered that job - the pay is crap but the hours are great. I'm thinking about taking it for the hours alone... Do hope you're all wonderful!

Anonymous said...

Stay calm and keep your head above water. Life is beautiful if you have the eyes to see it.

Unknown said...

I haven’t taken a single anti-depressant pill and I feel fantastic

Come on, those things never work. I keep telling this to my other half when she's down. Summer blues, I call it, as opposed to Winter since there's no real winter here in town. I tell her the key to feeling fantastic is right up there in her head, which no pill can beat!

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